So I am a special kind of stupid lately..I don't call myself stupid to be self flaggelating but in a matter of stated fact~ I have done some rather stupid and simple minded things lately...
If my stated goals in life right now are to:
Have a loving and sustaining relationship
Work in an interesting and lucrative position
Get into and attend Law School
Pay off outstanding debt and build solid wealth....
Why do I keep doing things that are opposite to acomplishing these tasks?
I had a job that I enjoyed and hated all at once..It paid very well and its challenges kept me interested daily..I quit my job~
I met a guy who seemed rather enamoured with me..so much so he came across country and stayed in a hotel for 5 days just to see me and be near me...I told him I needed space...
I have yet to contact my school to get the things I need for my application process...I have not paid my car note in 3 months and I owe three of my closest friends money....
WHAT IN THE HELL IS MY PROBLEM? How have i strayed so far from my personal path and truth? what is it enternally that keeps saying that I dont want the things i think i want...why sabbotage life when it has been good to me?
anyone have any answers out there in cyberspace please feel free to share~
Thursday, July 5, 2007
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