So I am a special kind of stupid lately..I don't call myself stupid to be self flaggelating but in a matter of stated fact~ I have done some rather stupid and simple minded things lately...
If my stated goals in life right now are to:
Have a loving and sustaining relationship
Work in an interesting and lucrative position
Get into and attend Law School
Pay off outstanding debt and build solid wealth....
Why do I keep doing things that are opposite to acomplishing these tasks?
I had a job that I enjoyed and hated all at once..It paid very well and its challenges kept me interested daily..I quit my job~
I met a guy who seemed rather enamoured with me..so much so he came across country and stayed in a hotel for 5 days just to see me and be near me...I told him I needed space...
I have yet to contact my school to get the things I need for my application process...I have not paid my car note in 3 months and I owe three of my closest friends money....
WHAT IN THE HELL IS MY PROBLEM? How have i strayed so far from my personal path and truth? what is it enternally that keeps saying that I dont want the things i think i want...why sabbotage life when it has been good to me?
anyone have any answers out there in cyberspace please feel free to share~
About Me
- ~Candyce maker creater and designer of my destiny~
- Houston, Texas, United States
- Consumate bliss finder..In search of where I am supposed to be and with whom doing Whatever....
1 comment:
WOW SEEMS LIKE YOU ARE EXPERIENCING LIFE. I HAVE A SAYING POSTED ON MY PAGE THAT SAYS " A GOAL WITHOUT A PLAN IS JUST A WISH"....IT SEEMS YOU ARE BEING DISTRACTED BY SOMETHING OF WHICH IS NOT MENTIONED IN YOUR BLOG,BUT ME I FIND THE QUICKEST WAY TO REFOCUS MYSELF IS TO ATTACK..ATTACK THE THING I CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT RIGHT AWAY,AND THE THINGS THAT REQUIRE MORE TIME OR FINANCIAL RENUMERATION SET NEW GOALS AND SCHEDULES TO ADDRESS THEM...QUESTION..DO YOU MEDITATE?? DO YOU SPEND TIME IN PRAYER.IT IS TRUE PRAYER DOES HELP(NO MATTER WHAT GOD YOU PRAY TOO)...BUT IT HELPS TO CENTER YOURSELF...BUT FROM HERE I SEE A INTELLIGENT STRONG WILLED BEAUTIFUL WOMAN,SO I HAVE ALL THE CONFIDENCE IN THE WORLD THAT YOU ARE GOING TO WORK THINGS OUT,I KNOW YOU WILL I CAN FEEL IT...!!!
RAH..
360.
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